It was too dark to get a good picture of my cat, so this recreation will have to suffice. I had many plans this morning. I had my alarm set, and was going to get up, make crumpets, make coffee, write my blog and conquer the world. Instead, I turned on a meditation, recognized my breathing had turned into snoring, and impotently willed myself to get out of bed. The cat meow and I "pretended" to sleep. Unsatisfied, she jingle jangled her way down and jumped on the bed, walking up my legs and painfully kneading me through the blankets transforming into a cat loaf. Twenty minutes later, she sprang from my bed and I sprang into action. The crumpets were crooked, the coffee was poured too soon, and I am now working on my blog.
Rest has always been a challenge for me because my mind is always dreaming up new ideas. I'm a doer and that can be a challenge when human since we need to be a being and just be. I would normally look at today as a wasted opportunity, but as we learned in previous musings, I need to rest. Rest is a way to renew and gain clarity. Funny enough, today's meditation was about gaining clarity. We were to notice when we had started day dreaming or starting a mental to do list. All this energy and nowhere to go.
Perhaps we need to take a pause and think strategically? If I tried to do everything that I think of, I would burn out. Let's be real, I have tried to do almost everything that I have thought of and I am burned out. I have always said that everything is an energy game. I have maxed out my energy credit cards and the repayments are very expensive. I need to gain focus in order to use my resources more effectively. One thing at a time. When I try to do everything, nothing gets done.
Okay me. You win. I will pause. I will listen. I will do the work and feel the feels and do the things. Continuing to do what I do an expecting different results is insanity. Namaste.
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