But Lot's wife, behind him, looked back, and she became a pillar of salt. Genesis 19:26 English Standard Version
Last week I posted about making decisions and moving forward. It is very tempting to revisit the past especially during uncertain times. My phone loves to remind me about the past. Most days I do look at the photos. Today's reminder was an incredible flower I saw on a morning walk and I had organized my office. The past can help to motivate us and remind us that we are capable and have 'done it before.' Sometimes the past is a wound better left undisturbed if you have worked to heal it. My friend's tell me it is Leo season. This is apparently a time to embrace our talents and gifts and not be afraid of sharing them with the world. I am doing better at celebrating who I am, but the past lingers trying to convince me to dim my light. I struggle to walk in the fullness of my being. One step, two steps; don't look back.
I've always been an idea person. I stuggle to bring them to fruition. My journey started with a dream. As a result of the dream, I created my first playshop. Here I am a few years later and I have yet to manifest the fullness of my dream. All of the elements are there; I have the knowledge, the structure, and something that will help people. What's stopping me? My fears and insecurities. This is doubly damning since I am an #IamRemarkable facilitator. Don't count me out as a fraud just yet. I got a project at work that really triggered me because I felt that I was obsolete. When I dug into it, I recognized that what I do can be recreated from a technical aspect, but it will not be what I do. It is like given someone the recipe for a cake. Another person may bake a passable cake that is edible, but it will not have the quality of a Stacy cake.
My eldest once shared feedback that I always look for the things that go wrong. It is not necessarily a bad thing to anticipate roadblocks and plan alternative routes. Waiting for the other shoe to drop can be an impediment to moving forward. "Nobody cares. No one will show up. I don't know what I bother." Does this sound familiar to you? These are phrases that can turn us into the proverbial pillars of salt. Expecting failure, halts my progress and forward motion. This week I was given several reminders about my gifts and talents. People shared that I understood their vision, that speaking with me is calming, and that my creative and structured approach helped their overwhelm. I can't wait for external validation to step into my power. I have to give myself the permission to be great. The wonderful Reverand Candas Ifama Barnes has given us the powerful affirmation #BecauseISaidSo!
As I stated last week, I am closing doors. I am releasing the things that no longer serve me. I am moving forward. The past is still there, but with each action on a previously delayed decision, there is less of a weight, shackling me down. The amazing Yinka Ewuola gave me a much needed kick in the butt about this latest dream. It has a date (August 13th at 10am EST), the deck is done, sign up form, and a way to accept payment. The only thing standing in my way is my willingness to be bold and to walk in my power. As I write this I literally closed another door. Will I continue to move forward or will I look back? I don't want to be a pillar of salt, I would rather use my gifts and talents to provide flavor as we walk this journey together. Namaste
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