I'm nervous. Tomorrow, I am stepping out of my comfort zone. I noticed I chose the phrase "I am" instead of "I will be." I am means I am capable now and that I am confident my first LinkedIn Live will be a success. However, I am also experiencing doubt because I do not know what to expect. If you have ever watched old Wyle E. Coyote cartoons where he runs off a cliff and is doing fine until he realizes that he is beholden to gravity and immediately plummets. In that case, you have an idea of how I feel about this new venture. I have to believe that I am capable. Furthermore, it's not something I will be doing alone since the audience shares in creating with me.
Self-doubt makes me feel as if I am flying on borrowed wings. I fear that the unknown mechanics of this enterprise will throw me for a loop. Everyone will see I am a turkey pretending to soar like an eagle. The question is why I feel a pretense. I am doing something new and unique, even though there are similar practitioners. I am not pretending to be something I am not. I said I will share how to use intuitive tools to gain clarity, and that is what I will do. So what if maybe I will not be able to share my screen? I have tangible tools that I can show people. No one knows how this is supposed to work or what it should look like, so I will enjoy stepping into my power and collaborating with others in a new medium for me.
How will it run? I have a framework for the process but no clear path since I have never used this medium before. I could do it one way or another. Instead of drowning, I will go with the current and allow it to guide me. How I work is through collaboration. I never claim to have the answers, but I know I can help spark more powerful questions in other people so they can view their situation in a new way. A flame needs oxygen to continue to burn, so I will envision a successful event instead of stifling myself with thoughts of failure. I will swim and not sink. Fish never panic about being in the water, and neither should I.
Growth requires discomfort. Tomorrow, I am going to grow. Nothing like trial by fire. I know myself, but I am unfamiliar with this situation. Yet. I do not know how this works yet. Our worst imaginations often turn out to be false. This past weekend was an exercise in having a positive mindset. We went to several crowded restaurants, and when it was our turn to order, a table would magically appear each time. I am the manifestation of my beliefs. I am primed for miracles and celebrate the tiny blessings of connection, serendipity, and love I am gifted with each day. Instead of focusing on "What if I fail?" I am going to be ready to win. Will you let your fears hamper you or drive you to take the plunge? Namaste
